I'm bored. Bored: uninterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence. So...too much of a good thing. We Want. We Get. We Have. We don't want. It's fun to want some thing. It's great to get that thing. It's comfortable to have those things. Then it's boring to have those things. Makes sense. I've kind of finally got all the material things that I want for the time. I've got a great girlfriend that I love, so I'm not out looking for someone. And I've been doing less than great with seeking after God lately. I guess that means that I've come down from my Get stage, and that anytime I have enough time to realize it, my comfortable "Have" stage is straddling a thin line, trying to fall into boredom. This mostly depresses me. Being a person who longs for comfort (admittedly worse than I should). The comfort area is so fleeting. No matter what it is. This little effect makes me feel like all endeavors are in vain. If I don't reach my goal, then I don't get the to the comfort there in, let alone the "high" time of reaching the goal. If I do reach the goal, then I get to the comfort, but that will soon become boring, and leave me in search of another goal. So, where is the best place to be. Find a goal that can never be reached, in an effort to consistently go higher. To someone like me, that will keep me going for a while, but then I'll inevitably burn out, due to feeling like I'm always trying, but never reaching. Maybe find a handful of things that can all be accomplished. Accomplish them, and as long as there are enough of them, they can't all be boring at the same time. I think maybe a mixture of the two. A couple of things that can't be reached that I'll always have to keep working at. But also always having some smaller goals that can give the feeling of achievement and comfort, so the larger goals are more manageable. I said earlier that this "mostly" depresses me. I only say mostly because it does give me a greater appreciation for the journey that is getting to know God. It means that I will always have a larger Goal that will not simply be achieved and then leave me wanting (as long as I continue pursuing said Goal.) However, it's not easy for me to appreciate the larger, harder goals. Relationships are part of that "Goal" category. The only relationship where the ultimate destination has been reached, is one that's over. And that's tough for me. That means that I'm always going to be working. I'm rarely going to be able to just be comfortable, because there is always more that can come from it. But if I stop, then I start rolling back down the hill that was that relationship. Which always tends to happen at some point. It might mean that I'm getting tired, feel like I've been trying too hard and am ready to reach a goal or comfort level. It might mean that I'm getting scared or losing hope or losing sight of what I'm working for. It usually just means I'm overwhelmed, but that's a tough place to be in. Overwhelmed: rendered powerless especially by an excessive amount of something. I like how it says "of something". Shows that people can become overwhelmed by a plethora of different things. It's just a place of dealing with more than you can handle. The tricky part there, is that I'm supposed to give problems and worries to God (as to not carry them on my own), but what about when God (or feeling overwhelmed by the idea of the never ending work of the relationship there in) is one of those worries. I guess that's the reason for church and christian friends and family, and to not seclude myself. So really, after most thought on the issue, it leads me to the idea that I should: A. Spend more time seeking God. B. Make myself have smaller goals in my life so that I may accomplish them and not feel constantly defeated by the lack of "reaching a goal". C. Make sure that I'm involved and surrounded by people that will help lift me up, and hold me in check to A and B. Shocking ;) | 
